where do all the people we used to know go?

forget about our friendship, i say. what one did we have to begin with?

where did all the people go? the friends. who did they turn into? what has happened to these people. why do their goings-on bother me so much? it used to be you stopped talking to someone and they disappeared. now, they reappear everytime i go on facebook with updates and pictures and i can't really escape them..
i want to tell them no you won't when they say they will call.
i want to tell them how much i disliked them anyway.
i want to them i miss you, who you used to be.
these are the friends i knew, i loved and i lost. i guess i miss the action, the excitement, the fun. i miss going out, i miss parties, i miss getting wasted. i'm not lonely but sometimes i am.
but where are all the people?
where did my friendships go?
what is a valid way to spend your time? it would be fun to move to ny, work in fashion..have a fabulous job with fabulous money or not a lot of money but fabulous style..ah but it is all just an illusion, right? those things don't bring happiness and if they do it is a blind sense of satisfaction, a fleetin bit of a pleasure.
i stay home and make strawberry salads while i enjoy box wine and sleep with my sweetheart. that is what makes me happy.
so why do i long for the comfort of friends i once knew?
i want to be cool again.