i try but i fail

i've been forgotten
left for dead
my body yelling out for help
but left unnoticed
as people pass me on the street
i've grown tired
fallen to pieces
marked by unhappiness
i've grown older
marked by wrinkles
and unhappiness

i cry out save me
and wait for a response
my voice echoes out
and does not return.

i turn the corner
and cross my fingers
knock on wood
i tap three times
collect myself
and inhale deep
i've got it now
i know i do.

he reaches out
i instantly react.
i fall short of his grip
he tries again
and i'm consumed
with catching him
i tell him take your time
and he waits till all the people have passed by.

by then i'm shattered
too many times
and not enough moments
i try to wait
but i fail.

i lie down on the street.

he catches me and i lean forward
diving into glass
im on autofocus
but no one can see me
i'm a glare
a blindspot
a twitch
an itch to scratch
i'm gone again.

blank stares and open spaces
cornered me in
and i'm trapped.
like a forrest set on fire
i yearn to be consumed
changed
rerooted,
and growing
i stop
and look around
but i am confused
everything looks different
and i know no one.

i try to wait
on the step of eternity
watching the people pass by
by and by they come
i close my eyes and drop my head
i slip and fall
i fail again.